oh btw, as an update i got myself the macbook pro last august :D real good deal but i learnt from my friend last night that he could have gotten a much better deal for me. oh wells.

the drama of yesterday was finally over. i feel like i just woke up from a bad dream, one that caused a lot of unnecessary hurt to a lot of people by my side. but i am sure that He has intended to get something to me yesterday too. i was just glad that i was home and could deal with the problem properly. but all's well ends well. thank you much, guys, for being there for me in this time of need, for listening to me cry and whimper, lash out in anger, defending and justifying or simply listening and offering your invaluable words of comfort. you know who you are :)

it was nice talking to keithy again. nice to sink back into the comfort of speaking with an old friend, frantically updating each other on our current lives [while the mental clock in me ticked away since he was calling from aussie], marvelling at how much we each have (not) changed and laughing at the fact that keithy is in fact a tamed tiger now . And at some point, keith commented that it's strange how he almost never makes new friends now [especially female ones as he is afraid that his male hormones will get the better of him haha] and is perfectly happy with the old ones. looking back, i think perhaps that is quite true. afterall, i am still closer to friends that i made previously during my good ole schooling days. and i am thankful that many of them are still around! still, making new friends are still exciting and a necessary part of life.

so. as a testimony to what i have just said, i am going for a long-awaited KTV session with the mission team youths! i think mission trip this time was a blast because of you guys. and yes, i miss ya all, thats why i organised this session (hurhur). i miss the days of standing in front of the kids, singing, cajoling, teaching and shouting till our voices gone hoarse! i miss the many many times when we had to think really really hard of how to say something in mandarin and remember to say kab-kun-ka(b). i miss the freezing cold river water that makes my hair oh-so-smooth. i miss the wide variety of raw and cooked vegetables, together with the bitter roots that make your eyes see better at night and the yummilicious fatty bits of the pork that our hosts have graciously offered to us as their best, of which we shamelessly swallow (ok fine, so thats only the four of us).  i miss the nights of bridge, tai-di, shopping in chiang-mai night market, massage and talk cok sessions. i miss the singing in the vans, the attempts to take pictures of each other sleeping with our mouths open in a most unglamz manner. i miss the way we viciously attack the food, with increasing tenacity as we grew to know each other better. i miss nan's various forms of wooooooo and our various attempts of imitating her. i miss telling you guys that i miss my favourite boy in huay hok! (sure, you will hear about it tonight :D)(and yes, you might have guessed, that my fav boy is the one next to me in my profile pic with a pink cap! you might recognise him from my previous post on huay hok last year :D). to be honest, i felt so strange to be alone after getting off the cab from the airport last friday afternoon. but it was nice, for though i was alone, i knew i wasnt lonely.

so yeah, mission trip was a blast, because of the company, the various little things that He has revealed to me and because of the love that i have genuinely felt for the kids' this time round. will share more when i get a hold on the pictures!

cheerios. i will go enjoy myself today.

Lord prepare me
To be a sanctuary
Pure and Holy
Tried and True
With thanksgiving
I'll be a living sanctuary
For You
  

the specifications are similar but the price difference is quite big!! any comments anyone? i cant resist the thought of a Macbook Pro though

 

good old fujitsu! the most attractive feature is that it is like 1.7kg

 

oh help, all i can think of is how many Ghz, RAM, HDD blah blah blah

Hot 'n' Throbbing!

Details: 22nd July 2006
(one night only!!!)
Where: NUS, LT 13 Theatrette
Tix: $15 only! (and 10% for students!)
Our Blog: http://hotandthrobbing.blogspot.com/

We were each asked to do a little write up and i have finally gotten my ass down to doing it. so here it is :)

It is amazing how every time I decide to do something for the Lord, He never fails to show Himself to me. In many ways, this trip to Huay Hok proved much more rewarding than what I can ever ask for. Two thoughts accompanied me throughout the whole trip and I would very much like to share it with everyone.

First, the Lord showed me the beauty of His creation. On cold mornings, I get to stand above and sometimes, in the clouds and see the blazing red sun making its way across the sky. On hot afternoons I get to taste juicy, tropical fruits and appreciate the shade created by the huge, overshadowing trees. And one morning as I was enjoying the sunrise, it hit me once again how the sun never fails to rise every morning. Sometimes, we may see it as clearly as I do while standing at the top of a mountain; at times we only allow it to peek out at us from behind those great grey buildings that we build; and perhaps on overcast days we do not see it at all. In the midst of this, the Lord spoke. He made it very clear that the Creator of the sun itself, is always there. Do I really have to travel all the way to the mountain peak (or even Vietnam J) to be reminded of God’s love and creation? Do I have to go through meetings, preparation, flights and van rides before I see the people that have to be reached out to? How many great big buildings am I creating for myself that will block out my vision of the Lord? The Lord is very clearly challenging me to really make a conscious effort to be aware of all these even in my daily “usual” life.

Second: the children. In Huay Hok, I saw what children in Singapore can become, if only they are allowed to grow – the abundance of love, faith and joy in their hearts, the simple expressions of laughter and tears when happiness and sadness set in respectively – I think I understood a little of what Jesus truly meant when He said “for of such is the kingdom of heaven” (Matthew 19:14). It is sad that in the world that we live in, such living conditions are considered “unsuccessful” or “poor”. People living in developed countries have no idea that many of them are just as poor as these people are, or perhaps more so. Yet on the other hand, people living in more undeveloped places cannot wait to get out. And this is the second message that God had for me – that truly, without God in our lives, none of us are rich. We may have clean streets, nice houses and fancy cars. But ultimately, what do they amount to? What do “love” and “faith” mean nowadays?

The children in Huay Hok have a greater impact on my life than they realised. Sure, they know that I love and care for them. But little do they know that every day, they serve as a reminder of what it takes to enter heaven.

This cute little 8 year old girl followed me everywhere i went :)